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What a couple of weeks!  It was my birthday last thursday so for some stupid reason I thought it would be fine to let myself eat pretty much what I wanted to in the week leading up to it - so that I gained 2lbs on my weigh in on thurs instead of losing 2 to reach my mini goal - and for a few days afterwards. 

Fortunately I seem to have sorted it out and yesterday went well and today is going fine too.  I am just gonna face the scales on thurs and see what the situation is and go from there.  You know what you’d think that saying RIGHT I am going to lose some weight would mean you just did it but it is so damn hard to change habits of a lifetime.  I am so used to just eating whatever I want that is unbelievably hard to just get on with it.

I am of course not going to give up but I have to say my latest struggles have definitely brought my whole mood down.  I want to feel GREAT about myself, happy and confident in ALL aspects of my life.  and I just can’t see that happening until I start seeing some success again.  When I saw that I had put 2lbs on I almost cried right there in the middle of the hall.  Problem was me and my mum had walked to the weigh in which took about 40mins so I knew I had that back so I managed to keep it in. 

I weighed myself yesterday morning and it looks like I have put a bit of weight on (can never really tell with those scales) but I don’t know if I can take it AGAIN, it doesn’t help that my mum is standing there aswell and I feel like it upsets her too basically my aim for the next few days is to make sensible food choices, keep my sweet treats limited, get some exercise in, and pull off a maintain at thursday’s weigh in.

I’d forgotten how useful buddyslim is while I was being a bit neglectful.  It is kinda like therapy for me to get these feelings out that have been bothering me all week!

Sorry for being a bit of a useless buddy these past couple of weeks, but I intend to stick this out, witness your success and report back on mine! x