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At least I can only assume that is why I have been so RAVENOUS for the last couple of days.  I ate like there was no tomorrow yesterday and although I haven’t been so stupid today I have still had more than I should.

I’m feeling pretty crappy today to be honest cuz I am really annoying myself.  I really want to lose this weight but it seems to be the actual process of doing it that is the problem!! I am so impatient, I just want to be slim and healthy NOW but it is my fault I let myself put so much weight on so unfortunately I am gonna have to deal with it! Maybe it’s just that I don’t WANT to give up all my unhealthy snacks that I was shovelling down my throat on a daily basis. So it is a choice I need to make for myself right now in this moment… take control and lose the weight or carry on the way I was, put all those 9lbs back on and more and risk a hell of a lot of health problems in the future! It is gonna be a lot more difficult changing these habits in 10yrs time! I think I know what my decision is!

No more excuses now, I will have to make sure I do really well for the next few days and yet again hope for the best on tuesday.

WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! grrrrrrrrrrrr

My aim this week was 3lbs off but after the weekend I had that was just no longer realisitic.  BUT 1lb HAS been shifted woohoo so I am pleased to see there has been a loss :).  My first mini goal was to have lost my first stone (14lbs) by the first weigh in after I start back at uni (the weigh-in next tues) but to do that I would have to lose 5lbs this week which somehow I don’t think is gonna happen lol.  So I have decided to push my mini goal a week back so I will need to lose 5lbs over the next 2 weeks which I think can be done as long as I stick with 10 syns a day and make sure I am keeping up with the exercise.

My dad set up the treadmill last week so I am gonna have a 30min session on that tomorrow :) and will blog about how that went.

I just wanna say thanks to all of you for your ongoing support especially this week.  I really appreciate your sweet messages of support - it really keeps me motivated knowing you are all there for me!

Yay for 1lb and here’s to a better week! x

Yesterday I aimed for “no syns” to make up for my naughty weekend and I DID IT :D  I am really proud of myself and I realised that after my evening meal I didn’t even have any snacks, not even healthy ones!  which shows me that I don’t need to keep snacking in the evenings.

I am not really looking forward to this week’s weigh-in cuz I know I will be disappointed with myself BUT it is the start of a new week (weigh-in day wise lol) so no matter what the results I will look forward to a healthier week.

I managed to get in 35mins exercise today too woohoo.  I joined the president’s challenge a couple of weeks back which is basically to do 30mins exercise 5 days a week for 6 weeks.  You get a star for each week that you complete the 5 days.  I got my 1st star just over a week ago but the week just gone I only squeezed in 3 sessions so I am trying to get that back on track too.  There is 8 stars to get though so I will still my “active lifestyle” award for 6 weeks unless I don’t stick to it for another 2 weeks across this couple of months.  So this week I will be reporting back on my exercise aswell as my eating habits!

I will post again this evening to let you know how the weigh in goes! x

So the plan this week was 10 “syns” per day instead of my usual 15.  I did great wed and thurs, stuck to it perfectly and was so proud.  Then Friday came… and I had my usual 15 and excused it away because “well it is friday”.  Then Saturday came and I thought hmmm well it is saturday but instead of having just 15 I had 2 extra snacks I shouldn’t have had and yesterday… I just was being a silly moo lol.

I must say I haven’t gone completely mad with it.  Like there was a big, fat double chocolate muffin staring at me last night but I walked away and didn’t give in but I still ate more snacks than I would have liked.

BUT I am happy to say that today has been a “syn free” day and right now I am not even tempted by any of the snacks we have in the house because I know how crappy it has felt giving in to things I shouldn’t have and how proud I will be tonight knowing I CAN stick to my goals.

I worked out that with the extra “syns” I have had it kinda works out to me having 15 syns every day except 1 day having about 20 so like 5 extra syns from my allowance but that isn’t good enough! I wanted to lose 3lbs this week and I don’t think I stand a chance to be honest, especially seeing as I haven’t even got much exercise in either.  I am wondering if maybe unconciously I have kinda known I prob won’t reach my 1st goal by next week like I wanted to so maybe somehow I just didn’t see the point in aiming for the 3lb loss but I am gonna forget about that now, see how tomorrow’s weigh in goes and take it from there.  If I still have 3lbs or more to lose by the next week I am gonna push my goal back a week - I have already pushed a couple of other mini goals back a little anyway so it will be fine and won’t affect the date I have given for my final goal (20th birthday next June).

So buddies, does you have some tips for how you manage to keep yourself motivated at those times of weakness? I could really use your support right now.  You guys are so amazing and you always make me feel more positive and I know that this time will be no exception x

I have said this several times now but at slimming world you are allowed between 5 and 15 “syns” a day.  My aim this week was to have 10 syns every day instead of my usual 15.  I had 9.5 on wed and thurs but yesterday I caved and had an extra snack taking me up to 15 syns, and today I have had an extra snack and that with my evening meal means that I will be having 14 syns today.  But I mean it has been Friday and Saturday, everyone deserves a bit of a treat! lol.

I will be back to my 10 syns tomorrow, if not a few less to make up for not quite suceeding with my aim this week.  I LOVE that I am making up for just having a maximum syn allowance unlike usually when it is cuz I have had like double my maximum allowance lol.  It is such a good feeling and it isn’t even like I am going crazy on snacks either.

I find slimming world quite difficult to explain but basically you have like “green” or “original” days.  On green days the idea is that you fill up on mainly pasta, potato and rice based dishes and “original” is meat based dishes.  Then each day you get 2 ‘a’ “healthy extras” which is portions of milk and cheese and 2 ‘b’ “healthy extras” which on a green day is portions of meat and bread and on original is like rice, pasta, potatoes.  I tend to have “green” days cuz I am not a huge meat eater but I do find it difficult planning meals that don’t have meat or bread in them sometimes so I have to count 6 syns extra if I have 3 portions of bread/meat everyday. 

Anyway lol my point is that sometimes my syns are coming from parts of meals rather than snacks and that has been the issue today - I had a cereal bar thing for breakfast which was 1 ‘b’ and a wholemeal pitta bread with lunch which is another, and I have got to use the last of the chicken today so gotta count 6 for that, but I felt I deserved a little treat anyway so have had some milky way magic stars

I think I am gonna start trying more of the “Quorn” meat range though, not sure if they have it over in America but it is basically like a meat subsitute like they do “Quorn mince” and Quorn “chicken pieces” and “lamb style grill steaks” etc.  It isn’t too bad and I think at least I can make meals that would usually have meat and not have to count the 6 extra syns cuz it is “free syns” on Slimming world woohoo and then I can use the syns on my chocolate fix lol.

Anyway hope you guys are all doing well, I will post again later x

Since starting my new healthy eating plan I have of course wondered when I may reach my final goal .  After thinking about it realistically I have decided to aim to reach it by my 20th birthday next year - 12th June.  I was talking about this with my boyfriend yesterday and we have decided that when I reach my goal we are gonna have a trip away next summer to celebrate, so that is something else to keep me motivated.

I am pretty excited now lol so thought I would just share that with you all!  I will post again later with a full report of the day lol, I am doing great so far and I know I will be keeping it up! x

There was a little change of plans with my meals today - I was planning out a “free syns” evening meal but turns out my mum was cooking a roast chicken dinner so I had to count some “syns” for the chicken as I had already used up my 2 “healthy extras” with my breakfast cereals and wholemeal pitta bread at lunch.

ANYWAY point being that if I was gonna stick with my 10 syns I would have to leave the milky way magic stars I planned for my cinema trip.  Wasn’t too bad though, there was 5 of us who went and only 2 people had snacks, the other 2 and me just bought a drink (I got a low calorie 1 of course lol).

I will be honest I am having a bit more of a crave at the mo and have just had a few of the bitesize honey nut shredded wheat pieces for a teeny bit of sweetness BUT I will NOT go and eat the milky way magic stars.  I want to enjoy them tomorrow when I deserve them, not go running downstairs, tear them out of the cupboard and eat them within seconds lol. I will just feel like crap after and I need to exercise some self restraint!

I think it has been worse today because it is the 1st time in a while that I haven’t had ANY unhealthy snacks in the day and I guess I am having withdrawal symtoms.  I decided to just come online and post my blog now and then I am gonna have another search for some nice clothes that will be similar to the stuff I will feel confident and happy wearing when I reach my goal weight

Will post again tomorrow.  Love you guys x

I’m really happy cuz today went according to plan! woohoo! :)  I didn’t end up doing the 30mins on the treadmill cuz I was a little busy with starting my revision and having to get started on tidying my room (I’m still like a 13yr old lol) but I do think I had a BIT of a workout pacing round my room bending and lifting and making trips to the utility room for the washing machine etc.

I stuck to my 9.5 syns too which I am chuffed about.  It has suddenly started feeling a lot easier again, like I am not overly craving things! I am going to the cinema tomorrow and I have even planned out a little treat for then, I am gonna take some “milky way magic stars” with me lol 5 syns a bag and gorgeous!  Rest of my new 10syns a day are going on meals and a “mini milk” ice cream/ lolly in the evening - 1.5 syns and cuuuute lol.

So I am VERY happy to report that everything went according to plan, and I will def have to reacquaint myself with the treadmill tomorrow :D.  Will post again tomorrow night with another story of success I am sure!

As some of you know I didn’t have the best week this week BUT I am happy to say that I haven’t done any damage! Yes I would have LOVED to have seen a drop on the scales but I don’t think I deserved it this week at all, so I am just glad to see I haven’t got to move my weight ticker back a couple of lbs!

My first mini goal was to lose my first stone (14lbs) by the first weigh in when I am back at uni.  This now means that I have to lose 6lbs in 2 weeks.  I have decided that I do want to keep my goal where it is because it is possible if I really go for it.  On the slimming plan I am on you can have 5 - 15 “syns” everyday: similar idea to weight watchers, some foods have a point value, and they suggest you start with about 15 and then work down to 10 so I have decided that this week will be my first 10 syns a day every day week since joining my local group :).

I have planned out my meals for tomorrow and even sorted out a sweet treat and all together the syn value for the day is 9.5 syns.

I have also decided to make a list of all the reasons I want to lose this weight and I am gonna keep it close by at all times with those pics I printed off of clothes ideas to buy when I reach my goal to keep me motivated.

Also my dad set the treadmill back up today so I am gonna have a 30min jog on there tomorrow :)  I will let you know how amazing everything goes tomorrow lol x

Last week me and some friends went to our local bowling alley and because some people were going back to uni at the weekend, this was obv a key time to whip out the cameras.  One of my friends has posted the pics on her facebook and myspace and of course I am not happy with the ones I am in.  The photos really remind me why I am doing this and when I have dropped more weight and feeling a little more brave I am going to post a couple on here!  That way every time I sign in I can be reminded about how horrible it feels looking at photos which are supposed to hold happy memories and instead feeling really sad, which I know will only encourage me to carry on towards a happier future.

Anyway, the weigh in is in about 2 and a half hrs soooo hopefully I will already be a step closer to feeling better about photo time! x